#in a way. i guess. i dunno
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guys this "keeping myself busy with distractions so I don't get sad" thing isn't working
#my mom is basically scrubbing the house of all traces of her bc thats how she copes. thats what she did when dad died#like two days later she was cleaning out all his medical equipment and stuff#i guess thats a way of dealing with it :( just doesnt really work for me because it makes me feel their absence even harder#like for me i personally wanted to keep Dad's stuff around for a while because. idk i guess it just felt like he was still kind of there#in a way. i guess. i dunno#obviously losing a pet is easier to deal with than losing a parent but it still blows dude i hate this#(* a parent that you had a good relationship with. i know that im very fortunate in that regard. not everyone had that and i need to count#my blessings)#idk this feels harder than losing my childhood dog because jojo was basically my constant companion for the past several years#after dad died i got suicidally depressed and didnt leave the house and was unemployed for a good chunk of time and she kept me company#taking her for walks and hikes was the only thing i enjoyed doing and the only thing that got me out of the house. she was always there#(also there's probably some psychological component to the fact that we adopted her specifically to be a companion for dad#when he was wheelchair-bound and couldnt go anywhere. so she kept him company. and then after he died she did the same for me#so. idk. like.... i feel like theres something there lol)#mia.txt#animal death
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for anyone too young to know this: watching The Truman Show is a vastly different experience now, compared to how it was before youtube and social media influencers became normal
before it was like, "what a horrifying thing to do to a human being! to take away their autonomy and privacy, all for the sake of profits! to create fake scenarios for them to react to, just to retain viewership! to ruin their happiness just so some corporate entity could harvest money from their very humanity! how could anyone do something so evil?"
and now it's like, "ah, yeah. this is still deeply fucked up, but it's pretty much what every influencer has been doing to their kids for a decade now. probably bad that we've normalized this experience"
#the truman show#sbs rambles#I keep thinking about how children on popular youtube channels should probably have laws to protect them#social workers assigned to them maybe#I dunno#they did not sign up to have their lives sold for profit#but here we are#tho#I guess none of us signed up for it#and our data is harvested more than ever#god#high-tech capitalism sucks turns out#OH WAIT because tumblr is bad at getting context sometimes#let me specify:#I am not saying that the movie The Truman Show is bad or that it normalizes this#like all good sci-fi (because it is kind of sci-fi) it's there to warn us of what the future could hold#and it did that in a very good way - it's a beautiful movie#I could see someone with a bad faith take assuming I meant that it was part of the problem#it absolutely wasn't. it didn't normalize this; we did#youtube did and social media#it's us that's the problem#or more specifically: big corporations and a lack of regulation#that's the origin of most modern problems
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Permission to headbutt: Granted (Patreon)
#My art#UT#Sans#Papyrus#Ft. something smol and I do on a regular basis ♪#This could be Handplates or it could be classic Undertale I leave that up to you lol#I definitely picked up a lot of the style quirks lol - but there are some of the ones that I like myself! Like Papyrus' darkmode clothes lol#And Sans' shorts having the stripe in the front haha - little details ♫#Realistically it probably is Handplates tho just based on where my head's at lol - I love the Handplates dynamic :D#Handplates#I talked myself into it! Pfft ♪#I found myself relating a lot to Sans especially while rereading - I want nothing more in the world than for my siblings to be happy! <3#So I gathered up a bunch of ideas of things especially me and smol do together and this was the most obviously cute one haha#Easiest to do! Tho I did still go a little extra on this lol#I'm trying to do more digital stuff ♪ It wasn't the best art day and I'm still a little nervous to jump right in :')#Not doing any sketches on paper beforehand feels weird but I guess it is thematic in a way lol#And I'm still pleased with how they turned out hehe#It really does feel nice to be drawing them again <3#And doing silly sibling things! Hehe#I dunno how clear it is since it's so ingrained into how smol and I talk to each other lol family language!#One of us will literally just announce ''bonk'' and the other will prepare for/lean in for a headbutt haha#She is a tiny bit taller than me - it's not quite /this/ extreme but she does lean down for me! S'cute <3#I like to think Papyrus would do the same hehe ♪ Let your lazy brother headbutt you! He can only reach so far!#On minimal effort anyhow hehe#It's just a fun way to be silly together ♫♪#Also yes I did show this to her and she cosigned lol - ''Cute'' -smol
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Finally got around to drawing these two idiots
Two bonuses from doodle boards:
#myart#chainshipping#saw#saw franchise#saw movies#adam stanheight#adam faulkner stanheight#adam saw#lawrence gordon#lawrence saw#saw 2004#saw 3d#I Dunno if u guys can tell but!!! I got a new art program and i messed around ALOT with the features w the painting#Best way to commemorate a new art program is with chainshipping ig 🫶#I love pathetic wet cat middle aged men yaoi#P.S. if anyone can guess the reference I made w adams look…. i love u#Im so glad i actually finished this before pride month ends 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#Can anyone tell that I like lawrence can anymone tell i like him a lot ca#original idea came from a literal dream where it was just Saw 3d but Adam kicked ass
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when martha jones is dying, all sorts turn up on her doorstep. mickey sent out messages everywhere to everywhen, and they all came. people she’d helped, friends she’d loved, the odd alien or two who’d wanted to whisk her away for a romance across the stars
captain jack harkness is the last of all of them
she isn’t sure how long it’s been for jack, he looks ever the same. she saw him last a few years ago when he left earth for some adventure, but martha knows time travelers, knows the look on someone’s face when it’s been a hundred years since they last saw you
sad and happy and regret and just plain old love
jack tells her stories. makes her laugh. holds her thin hand in the night when she’s shaking and cold under three blankets but mickey needs all the sleep he can get
he loves her just as plainly as he always has, because it was never about her youth or her beauty but about her, about the universal Force that is martha jones
and she loves him, because she always will, because when you fly through the time vortex with people they get stuck in your heart and never leave you
martha spends three days debating with mickey if she should tell jack. about new new york, and the motorway, and his actual, permanent death. they wonder if it would help him, that there really was going to be an end someday, or if it’ll just hurt knowing he’ll have to spend billions of years forced back to life before he’s allowed to rest
jack leaves on the fourth day. martha and mickey wave goodbye from the garden steps. jack kisses them both on each cheek and then the mouth, a last goodbye for when the word just isn’t enough
“jack!” martha calls out as his vortex manipulator beep-boops an incoming teleport. he turns back just as the light surrounds him, “you are not alone.” jack raises his arm in a salute, and that is the last they ever see of him
she dies two weeks later, home on earth with mickey and tish and leo beside her, with the sound of all the kids and grandkids playing in the garden floating up to her window. and she knows. knows that the time will come and the universe will turn on and on and on, and one day
martha jones and captain jack harkness will be together for the final time, again
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#lemon speaks#doctor who#martha jones#captain jack harkness#jack harkness#not slash but you can read it that way i guess#i dunno i think everyone loves each other#edited#there were just a couple typos#and then a couple passages i rewrote to flow better#i did Not edit this before i posted so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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Things that I know.
1. Yaoi is the opposite of yuri
2. According to tumblr, yuri seems to be just about anything, but I have most commonly seen it take the form of two inanimate objects in close proximity to one another. Eg minecraft furnace and crafting table, trains crashing into each other, etc.
Therefore, we can conclude that Yaoi is two inanimate objects that are very far apart from each other. The sun and the earth are yaoi.
#sun#earth#yaoi I guess#this too is yuri#this too is yaoi#I dunno how to tag its 11:17pm and nobody should ever expect anything from me#I’ll tag this as minecraft too why not#minecraft#trains#part of me said this to be funny and part of me loves the idea of the sun and the earth as a metaphor for romance#without the sun the earth would be cold and lifeless#a barren wasteland that could never imagine a hopeful future#yet the sun? without the earth it’s still the sun. sure it’s not THE sun but it still exists and it’s still there#the earth needs the sun. something that could leave at any time but chooses to stay out of love. the earth cannot benefit the sun#in any meaningful way but it does what it can because it wants to show the sun that it has noticed and it cares and it loves#humans-part of the earth. place the sun in their religions. their stories. anything to make the sun feel special.#the sunflowers. birds. ocean. all these parts of the earth chip in somehow. they want the sun to feel the love the earth feels for the sun#but the sun already feels that love#and the sun hopes the earth knows it#and the sun stays by the earth’s side because it loves the earth.#truly the best example of yaoi out there
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For as much of a raging, misogynistic monster Jimmy is, especially towards Anya-- sexually harassing her, treating her with no respect, constantly belittling her and her work and worth, being generally extremely inconsiderate, ect-- I never really got the impression that he hated her, surprisingly. He absolutely resents her for the pregnancy he forced on her and envisions it as a monster out to hunt him down, sure, but he still included her in this delusional fantasy of a happy birthday celebration. In his mind, she's shown as encouraging and adoring, referring to him as their Captain Jimmy, showering him that recognition and reverence he always wanted. It's interesting, because given how he acts towards her, you'd think she'd be more silent and out of the way-- or better yet, not included at all considering how hard he tried to block her from his mind in comparison to Daisuke, Curly and even Swansea during the guilt sequences. But she is included, and not at all in a negative light.
To me it doesn't really seem he hates Anya personally as much as he hates everything she means for him. For as little respect as he has for her, he seems fine around her in general. He doesn't really seem to mind her when she fawns over him, when she exists in their group as an active member, because I imagine those traits about her wouldn't be present here if he did. He doesn't really mind thinking about Anya, her being on his mind at all-- until he has to confront what he had done to her, the consequences of his actions, the way her pregnancy would negatively affect him and how he should feel guilty and owe her an apology more than everyone else. Then all of sudden she's physically nowhere to be seen, the memory of her banished to the darkest corners of his fractured mind-- suppressed and buried, where he'll never have to think about her again.
In this celebratory delusion, she's allowed to exist. In the guilt sequences, she is not. Her absence has nothing to do with her and everything to do with him.
#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#jimmy mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#jimanya#jimmyanya#i guess lmao#anyway just thinking again#i don't think his feelings towards her are as simple as “he hates/doesn't care about her”#while resentment and bitterness are definitely felt they feel less targeted at her as a person and more at her as an idea. a threat#he seems to hate the idea of consequences and responsibility she represents to him rather than actually hating her if that makes sense#same with swansea referring to jimmy as “captain jimbo”#you'd think if he hated that nickname so much his delusions would have swansea addressing him with more respect but nah#the way the crew treats jimmy is more or less the same as they did previously except their relationships are far more positive#and i don't know what that says about jimmy's feeling towards the group and about him as a person#i dunno if i cooked here i just thought it was interesting#momento rambles
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How are we still here y'all oh my stars...
#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#f!leo#future leo#rise cassandra#f!mikey#future michelangelo#bad future rottmnt#wrong fabricated time branch#no-thinked my way through this i dunno anymore..#*nervous laughter*#heh..#also!#i guess i kinda worded that last update wrong but like i mentioned i kinda wasn't thinking a whole lot when i drew this part so...oops#i didn't know this was gonna happen honestly..#:)
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#darkzyx#poll time#ok I’m just curious because I accidentally start writing important lore in the#tags like 80-90 % of the time#or just personal artist/author notes I guess???#I dunno haha#just extra stuff I wanted to say that I didn’t wanna make like#blatantly obvious with the caption#I love reading tags on posts and reblogs since it’s sort of tumblr’s way of commenting and sharing#at the same time!#and it took me an embarrassingly long time to realize this tumblr culture haha#after all#I posted to Instagram way more before tumblr#so I didn’t really think to read the tags on things until tumblr#anyways enough rambling haha
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you are worth all the struggle and bloody mess
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#falin touden#marcille donato#dungeon meshi#dunmeshi#dungeon meshi spoilers#blood#gore#(actually pom juice but just in case)#awhile back i saw a bunch of posts about how pomegranates are worth the effort and bloodiness of trying to open them#in like a vague poetic romanticizing way.. you know the genre of tumblr post#and thought of how much marcille was willing to do to get falin back#i dunno. not sure how to explain what i was going for here#'what if the red dragon was a huge pomegranate that marcille had to dig falin out of with her bare hands'#..i guess that's basically it actually#fan art#my art#not very accurate pomegranate drawing either but it was more fun to stylize like this and i wanted it to look kinda fleshy#for the red dragon/necromancy/general visceral struggle comparison
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Am I the only one who thinks its weird that despite being the most resistant to using the tadpoles powers, the first thing lae'zel does after the nautiloid crash is use the tadpole link to talk to you
#can't sleep so having lae'zel thoughts as usual#it just seems like a very odd things for her to do#I thought maybe it was hinting at it being a gith thing#cuz psionics can be used for telepathy and the way the connection is described is a bit different from the usual tadpole way#but I also don't think lae'zel is quite skilled enough to do that yet#I dunno something to think more on I guess
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cross-posting some stuff i like from my personal twitter / text from here
#the terror#james fitzjames#francis crozier#fitzier#hooonnnestly i'm not sure these are finished enough i would consider them appropriate for this blog#but tbh... i really like some of the frames in this set#and i think the format works much better in a long post like this than in just discrete images as on twt#i dunno. either way ! hi i guess
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Hi! I found a repost of your comic 20 year waltz on TikTok and thought you might want to know. Looks like someone reposts it and plugs ai voice acting in to farm engagement. Insultingly enough they spelled you twitter user “Flandleg” (????)
I made sure to credit you in the comments properly but here’s a link to the post (part 1/2 ofc) in case you wanna check it out for yourself
https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMhG3YoWF/
Hope your day is going well otherwise!
Hey, thank you (and others) who have come forward to let me know about this. The reality is that I can't do anything about it either, so I prefer not to be reminded. I will say that, of all the times my art has been reposted, this one did actually seem to drive some genuine engagement back to me & my comic download, so there's a silver lining! (I can't imagine the AI voice acting sounding good though...)
The best thing anyone can do if they find my art reposted, and which I really appreciate, is to report it and make sure I'm credited somewhere, because I don't have the energy to get them all myself. Please don't start fights, and please don't feel the need to defend or speak for me - just a simple reply explaining who the artist is and a link back to me goes a long way.
At the end of the day I know that when I post something to the Internet it's inevitable that it will get reposted, so I've made my peace with it. But it's kind of a bummer to be reminded constantly, so I appreciate when people credit me in the replies of reposts that they see ♥♥♥
That said, I picked this message to respond to because WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNN FLANDLEG??? I briefly changed by Twitter handle to 'Flandeg' as a gag with the 🍮 emoji BUT WHERE DID THE LEG COME FROM. WHY DO PEOPLE KEEP TRYING TO PUT LEG IN MY NAME. IS IT SANJI
#BY THE WAY. IF YOU ARE ONE OF MANY WHO MAY NOT HAVE NOTICED: THERE IS ONLY ONE L IN LANDEG#flandleg....... phenomenal#it never ceases to amaze me the bare minimum attention that reposters pay to the creators they steal their content from#one of my other comics got reposted to some manga reading site (???) and both my name AND my url were mistyped#my actual name is right there in my Twitter bio you don't have to go guessing off my temporary handle#I just. I dunno man I can't begin to relate to the thought process of an art thief/reposter#but it feels like the world must just be one long blurry series of flashing lights and colours to them. like wow#they are just grabbing stuff and running as fast as they can like a toddler who saw an unattended snack cake
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A god must feed; a god must be fed.
How do we make something outside of that?
#the silt verses#paige duplass#this is MY prophet :)#my lines#i originally wanted to make this with way more gore but then backed out#dunno why#looks cleaner this way i guess#more ambigious
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“The man is a public danger. There are lonely houses scattered over the moor, and he is a fellow who would stick at nothing.”
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“I assure you, Sir Henry, that in a very few days the necessary arrangements will have been made and he will be on his way to South America.”
Reading it as a kid, I don’t think I gave it a second thought, but, uh… this seems kind of rough on South America.
#letters from watson#i guess i really was young when i read these the first time#i keep running across things which at the time i accepted as just. i dunno. the mysterious ways of the world#and now for example i get to the end of A Case Of Identity and go “…hold on. i’m not convinced that’s a good idea actually.”#or “wait a minute i don’t think shipping the spree killer to another continent will completely solve the problem”
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I like the beetlejuice musical so this spawned on my canvas Idk
#I used to draw the characters a little differently during that time#especially Susie#I don’t draw her legs like that anymore#but It‘s still basically the same I guess?#anyway I just gotta say that this is bery fitting to me#and I only have like two reasons#first: susie has daddy issues and i dunno it works#second: the type of Issues Beetlejuice has is how I like to think Marx would be#also the way Beetlejuice gets desperate like I dunno how to describe it#his ass does not want to be abandoned which is why he acts like a lil shit#Again it‘s probably mostly just a personal headcanon thing but yeah#kirby#kirby marx#my art#marx kirby#fanart#old art#art#kirby fanart#kirby susie haltmann#kirby susie#susie haltmann#susie kirby#gijinka#marx gijinka#susie gijinka#gikabi#I almost forgot to mention that beetlejuice is also really insane so yes I‘m right pffft#oh god I drew marx way too short ughh#I gotta cope
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